Happy Birthday Up There <3

Do you believe in heaven? Or in reincarnation? Or do you just think it’s over when we’re gone? There’s just one thing I’m really scared of and that’s death. I can’t really talk about it. It freaks me out. I don’t like the idea of not knowing where I’ll go or where the people I love are now they’re not here anymore.

Today it’s Tyler’s birthday. When I lived in Florida for my exchange he was one of the people I trusted and loved. There weren’t many people who were actually straight and honest with me. Most people just thought it was cool to hang out with the blonde exchange student. Tyler had very deep thoughts. He certainly was one of those special guys who don’t just accept the way things go but really think about it.

Until Tyler’s dead I had never really experienced anything bad in my life. I still can’t believe he’s gone. I’m not looking forward to visiting Florida anymore, because it’s gonna be so weird not being able to see him.

But, today I don’t cry. I celebrate. I celebrate the fact I got the opportunity to spent time with an amazing guy. I wish he had grown older. I don’t believe in heaven nor in reincarnation. I’m one of those people who think it all ends after death. But since Tyler died I really wish there’s something better. I like to think that he’s not completely gone. And that he’s rocking his day up there, wherever ‘there’ might be.

Have a heavenly birthday TV!



The poem I wrote for Tyler: –>here<–


The Walking Dead

It was all over Facebook and all my male friends talked about it : The Walking Dead, a television series by the AMC channel about a bunch of people who are trying to survive a world full of zombies. I do like supernatural stuff, but zombies? Nahhh. I’m a girly series girl. Or at least I was, until 2 days ago. I had to wait for a new Pretty Little Liars, 90210 and The Vampire Diaries so I basically had nothing else to watch and downloaded The Walking Dead season 1. And boy… I’m hooked!!!

I really like how it’s all so surreal when you think about it, but very credible while you’re watching. There are a bunch of badass scenes. In fact, almost every scene is amazing. It’s all perfectly produced!

Usually I watch series with incredible gorgeous actors who dress perfectly and talk neat. This show is different since the actors are very ‘real’.

The thing I don’t like… Might sound dumb since the series is about surviving zombies, but those zombies are so nasty! I really don’t like blood. It makes me nauseous. The fact those zombies like eating intestines makes it even dirtier but he, gotta cope with those little details when you’re watching an awesome show like this!!

So I’m about to finish season 1 and season 2 and 3 are already waiting for me 😀