Happy Me – Black and White

I really love my Nikon D3100 but I’m not practicing often enough. I’m usually taking pictures of people who don’t notice it or of myself, because I’m not confident enough to practice on people posing for me yet. I’m into black and white photography. I only like a picture when the person in it doesn’t fake his or her expression. Still, when you’re modeling it’s hard to avoid posing your facial expression. These self-portraits aren’t very perfect or whatever, but I think they show that I was very happy at the time (and I still am!). The fact I just came from the beach and didn’t wear any make-up makes the pictures more ‘real’.

Don’t mind letting me know what you think.

TV is Up

 

I wrote this poem for a friend of mine: Tyler. His initials were T.V. and he used to post things like TV is Up. He still makes me smile when I think of him (:

Thinking about you hurts
When I realize you’re gone
I don’t believe in heaven
So that means for you it’s done 

Being gone does not mean
I can’t see you in my head
I’m sleeping with a smile
But I wake up sad

Your smile, your thoughts, you being there
It has all come to an end
A great person loved by so many people
A joker, a thinker, a friend            

 You’ll never be forgotten
Of course we’ll always care
Now our TV is up
Up above us. Up, up there.

 

Perfect Life

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Yes I am smiling.
Can’t you see how happy I am?
I’m living the perfect life.
 
I got no reason to be sad.
No reason to cry, to scream, to hurt myself.
I’m living the perfect life.
 
Fuck my life.
I hate myself, my world, the way everyone is.
I hate my perfect life.
 
I’m alone.
I can scream if I want to, no-one will notice.
They think I’m living the perfect life.

 

*I set the shutter really low so I was able to move in the picture (it’s just one shot).